"they have mixed the people who belong to God with the people around them."v2
"My God, I am too ashamed and embarassed to lift up my face to you, my God, because our sins are so many. They are higher than our heads. Our guilt even reaches up to the sky."v6
What a gut wrenching chapter. Gut wrenching because a)aren't we (as a culture) guilty of the first? and b)aren't we almost arrogant with God to the point of focusing on how much He LOVES us and how much WORTH we have in His eyes, yada, yada, yada? The truth has been twisted into a lie... that because God is love, we are loveable. It becomes about us, when it is meant to be about GOD. All about Him, all for his glory, all for a truth that will send us crashing onto our knees weeping in the words of Ezra. Aware of our wretchedness, ashamed, humble. Only then when we lay ourselves flat can we truly learn what it is to be awashed in waves of mercy and grace.
I hope you don't mind me adding notes from my Bible. I feel very new to Bible reading and love the guidance in my notes. I usually read the chapter and the notes and then add here the verse(s) and/or notes that stood out for me.
"Ezra recognized that if God gave the people the justice they deserved, they would not be able to stand before him. Often we cry out for justice when we feel abused and unfairly treated. In those moments, we forget the reality of our own sin and the righteous judgment we deserve. How fortunate we are that God gives us mercy and grace rather than only justice. The next time you ask God for fair treament, pause to think what would happen if God gave you what you really deserve. Plead instead for his mercy."
"Then, at the evening sacrifice, I rose from my self-abasement, with my tunic and cloak torn, and fell on my knees with my hands spread out to the Lord my God and prayed..." v5 and start of 6 I was struck by the depth and outward show of grief over sins committed. In fact these sins were not even his own but those of his countrymen. This is not my respoense to sin. I tend to put on a strong face, carry on with life, confess, ask for forgiveness, tell as few people as possible, make amends where possible. I would avoid anyone who did carry out the actions of Ezra. I am left to wonder if this is purely cultural or if there are some components missing in the way I deal with sin...my own and that of our society. Do I brush over it as quickly as possible, minimize and make the same mistakes again and again....do I confront the people who I love who are wandering farther from God with each decision they make. I do not think I could ever wail and tear my clothes but the scenario has caused me to stop and ponder.
@Nise, not sure if you saw it yesterday but I think I commented telling you how much I enjoy the notes from your bible. They are really practical and thought provoking. You are doing wonderful and before you know it you will be gleaning your very own thoughts, don't worry, it comes with time. The more familiar you become with the scriptures the more amazing stuff will open to you and you will start to get excited. Hang in their, girlfriend, I love to know you are seeking Him and I love to hear what stands out to you from His words to you.
@Jude, it is very thought provoking. I can't see myself on my knees wailing in the town square, but I can see myself crying quietly in a moment of confession and fellowship with other women/people.
I think this is what we are missing. Confession and prayer is such a huge part of our spiritual walk, and we like to keep them VERY private. But you can't. They were meant to be practiced corporately, they were meant to bind a people together in love and forgiveness, repentance and strength. United we stand... kinda deal.
I was listening to some REALLY convicting stuff on confession in one of the Peasant Princess sermons. I will have to go back and listen again as I think it would be really applicable here. I might get a chance to listen to it on my way into the city tonight.
PC: "I can't see myself on my knees wailing in the town square, but I can see myself crying quietly in a moment of confession and fellowship with other women/people."
I watched my husband and several of his buddies pray over each other in turn last night and I felt like my Spirit was going to explode!
The idea of being moved to the point of public display is so frightening for us... and we are women!! It seems all the more rare to see men in this way and yet Esra was a man and he threw himself into the moment and didn't hold back.
I was so blessed to witness the men last night and I pray more and more of us will have no choice but to react where ever and when ever God calls us to PRAY and WORSHIP and REPENT and so on and so forth.
I felt the sweetness that comes from confession among friends during Sunday school this week. Just unloading my situation, my sin, and confusion brought relief, cleansing and clarity to my heart and my next steps. The bitterness and need for justice is nearly gone... and what a good reminder for me you've written here, Denise... fair treatment indeed.
We are reading our way through the bible one chapter per day. The idea behind my personal reading plan is to read through books chronologically, but not solely one book at a time. Thus on Monday we read from the books of the law, Tuesday the books of kings and judges, Wednesday the books of Jewish History, Thursday Books of Wisdom, Friday the Prophets, Saturday the Gospels and Sunday the Epistles. The next Monday we pick up at the chapter we left off in ancient history. You may think that this would be disjointed and would cause you to "lose your groove" but I have found the contrary to be true, the threads of promise, redemption and grace show up more clearly as I make my way slowly through these books in a parrallel fashion and when I pick up where I left off a week before I am reminded of things that stood out to me from last week's reading. Journaling is a big part of my processing scripture and fixing particular tidbits in my mind for the purpose of life application. I would love to have you join me!
Basic Reading Plan
Mon (Law): Genesis-Joshua
Tues (Rulers): Judges-Chronicles
Wed (History): Ezra-Psalms
Thurs (Wisdom): Prov-Jer
Fri (Prophets): Lam-Malachi
Sat (Gospels): Matthew-Acts
Sun (Epistles) Romans-Revelation.
The theme I have given each section is general. Joshua is not a book of the law and Psalms is not a book of history. The main chunk of reading in each section is, however, suitably classified as the theme it is under. In order to make the sections even out to have the same general number of books/chapters, this was the closest I could come. Otherwise one would be reading through certain sections (like the Law) for instance, much more often than the wisdom books, etc.
(Fellowship is) an expression of both love and humility. [It] springs from a desire to bring benefit to others, coupled with a sense of personal weakness and need. It has a double motive – the wish to help, and to be helped; to edify, and to be edified. It has a double aim – to do, and to receive, good. It is a seeking by Christian people to know God better through sharing with each other what, individually, they have learned of Him already. J.I. Packer.
A few introductory words of encouragement....
Think of your time feeding on God's Word as a vital aspect of your health and wellness. You wouldn't go a week without brushing your teeth, or eating physical food, don't treat the nourishing of your soul by the Word of God with any less care.
Don't cram multiple chapters if you fall behind of plan, but *do* "back-read" if you have the passion and earnest desire to do so. My habit if I miss a chapter is usually to leave it until that book comes up again the next week (based on my own reading plan) and then read two consecutive chapters rather than the one I am scheduled to read.
Don't be legalistic about the when and how. If you don't get a quiet time in the morning, THAT'S OKAY. Find a moment in the afternoon to grab a drink, sit down and put your feet up, and soak up a chapter. And if that doesn't happen, THAT'S OKAY. Take 15-20 minutes at the end of the day to plump some pillows up in your bed and soak it up before you go to sleep. And if that doesn't happen, IT'S OKAY. Tomorrow is a new day. Don't let the enemy discourage you from spending time in the word TODAY because you didn't YESTERDAY. That's just dumb. Did you get that? DUMB.
If you don't have time to read, meditate. Allow God to bring a passage of scripture to mind and allow yourself to listen. Take time to be quiet in your spirit. While you are washing dishes, folding laundry, vacuuming... cleaning bathrooms.
Spruce things up. Get yourself a PRETTY journal and jot down little things that stand out to you. Use your favourite mug or a pretty glass to pour your favourite drink. Sit in your favourite spot (this could change from day to day and depending on the time of day you read. A sunny spot on the porch in the morning, a wing back chair and a blanket if it's chilly, a garden swing in the shade on a hot afternoon, or plumped up in bed with soft lamplight in the evening. Again, don't be legalistic about the location, pick a happy spot that fits the moment/opportunity.) Oh, and DON'T wait for the pretty journal. Plain lined notepaper or even a crumpled scrap paper will work just FINE until you get one....
Remember while you read, God's word is FOR YOU. yes, it was written to a particular audience in a particular time in history and for a particular reason. But it was also written with YOU in mind, TODAY in mind, and is designed to give you strength and wisdom for the journey.
Claim ONE part of the passage and take it to heart. Read through the chapter without too much introspection at first and see what part most stands out to you. Go back and look at that part more specifically and ask yourself what is in there for YOU?
Ask relevant questions. I usually look at a passage with 2 questions in mind. 1. What does this passage tell me about God's character? 2. What does this passage tell me about humanity (ie, ME, in relation to God? a final and very important question to ask is "What does this passage require of me on a practical level?" Write down one attitude, practice or truth you want you live out TODAY in light of what God has just revealed to you. This is how we take ownership of the Word of God and allow it to relate to us and shape us on a personal level.
Build yourself a monument. As I ponder a passages relevance to me I journal the thoughts that arise. Jotting them down somehow cements my convictions in my mind, almost like laying out stones in a monument so I can go back to that place later and be reminded. I also use those notes to come here and share my thoughts later with others.
Keep your actual quiet time concise. This will help make it more likely the habit will continue to happen on a regular basis. Better to spend 15 minutes in the word daily, than 1 hour once a week.
Don't require absolute "alone" and uninterrupted time (without kids around). If they are around, they can learn to not interrupt you for 15 minutes, just like you spend time with other people when they are around, you can spend time with the Lord with them around too.
Think of God’s Word as a love letter to you. When you read stories of God’s wrath in the Old Testament, think about WHAT love paid the price for all that wrath and how a hand that once smote anyone who dared touch the ark of His covenant now beckons YOU to draw near to the throne of grace. Read everything in light of who God is and how much He loves mankind that in spite of our being so deprived, His love story reaches out, encompasses us, washes us clean, and seeks to draw us near.
May you seek Him, may He be found by you, and may you be blessed on the journey.
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"they have mixed the people who belong to God with the people around them."v2
"My God, I am too ashamed and embarassed to lift up my face to you, my God, because our sins are so many. They are higher than our heads. Our guilt even reaches up to the sky."v6
What a gut wrenching chapter. Gut wrenching because a)aren't we (as a culture) guilty of the first? and b)aren't we almost arrogant with God to the point of focusing on how much He LOVES us and how much WORTH we have in His eyes, yada, yada, yada? The truth has been twisted into a lie... that because God is love, we are loveable. It becomes about us, when it is meant to be about GOD. All about Him, all for his glory, all for a truth that will send us crashing onto our knees weeping in the words of Ezra. Aware of our wretchedness, ashamed, humble. Only then when we lay ourselves flat can we truly learn what it is to be awashed in waves of mercy and grace.
I hope you don't mind me adding notes from my Bible. I feel very new to Bible reading and love the guidance in my notes. I usually read the chapter and the notes and then add here the verse(s) and/or notes that stood out for me.
"Ezra recognized that if God gave the people the justice they deserved, they would not be able to stand before him. Often we cry out for justice when we feel abused and unfairly treated. In those moments, we forget the reality of our own sin and the righteous judgment we deserve. How fortunate we are that God gives us mercy and grace rather than only justice. The next time you ask God for fair treament, pause to think what would happen if God gave you what you really deserve. Plead instead for his mercy."
"Then, at the evening sacrifice, I rose from my self-abasement, with my tunic and cloak torn, and fell on my knees with my hands spread out to the Lord my God and prayed..." v5 and start of 6
I was struck by the depth and outward show of grief over sins committed. In fact these sins were not even his own but those of his countrymen. This is not my respoense to sin. I tend to put on a strong face, carry on with life, confess, ask for forgiveness, tell as few people as possible, make amends where possible. I would avoid anyone who did carry out the actions of Ezra. I am left to wonder if this is purely cultural or if there are some components missing in the way I deal with sin...my own and that of our society. Do I brush over it as quickly as possible, minimize and make the same mistakes again and again....do I confront the people who I love who are wandering farther from God with each decision they make. I do not think I could ever wail and tear my clothes but the scenario has caused me to stop and ponder.
@Nise, not sure if you saw it yesterday but I think I commented telling you how much I enjoy the notes from your bible. They are really practical and thought provoking. You are doing wonderful and before you know it you will be gleaning your very own thoughts, don't worry, it comes with time. The more familiar you become with the scriptures the more amazing stuff will open to you and you will start to get excited. Hang in their, girlfriend, I love to know you are seeking Him and I love to hear what stands out to you from His words to you.
@Jude, it is very thought provoking. I can't see myself on my knees wailing in the town square, but I can see myself crying quietly in a moment of confession and fellowship with other women/people.
I think this is what we are missing. Confession and prayer is such a huge part of our spiritual walk, and we like to keep them VERY private. But you can't. They were meant to be practiced corporately, they were meant to bind a people together in love and forgiveness, repentance and strength. United we stand... kinda deal.
I was listening to some REALLY convicting stuff on confession in one of the Peasant Princess sermons. I will have to go back and listen again as I think it would be really applicable here. I might get a chance to listen to it on my way into the city tonight.
Thanks for all of the encouragement.
PC: "I can't see myself on my knees wailing in the town square, but I can see myself crying quietly in a moment of confession and fellowship with other women/people."
You are truly a beautiful and genuine person!
@Nise... so are you, sweet friend. So are you.
Prayer...
I watched my husband and several of his buddies pray over each other in turn last night and I felt like my Spirit was going to explode!
The idea of being moved to the point of public display is so frightening for us... and we are women!! It seems all the more rare to see men in this way and yet Esra was a man and he threw himself into the moment and didn't hold back.
I was so blessed to witness the men last night and I pray more and more of us will have no choice but to react where ever and when ever God calls us to PRAY and WORSHIP and REPENT and so on and so forth.
I felt the sweetness that comes from confession among friends during Sunday school this week. Just unloading my situation, my sin, and confusion brought relief, cleansing and clarity to my heart and my next steps. The bitterness and need for justice is nearly gone... and what a good reminder for me you've written here, Denise... fair treatment indeed.
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