Tuesday, October 23, 2012

October 22-28

Monday: Genesis 42
Tuesday: 1 Samuel 13
Wednesday: Psalm 67
Thursday: Jeremiah 5
Friday: Lamentations 4
Saturday: Matthew 7
Sunday Hebrews 11


Denise said...

Psalm 67
"Every verse in this psalm mentions God's relationship with the entire globe. The intended audience of this message spans the world. God repeatedly spoke to and through his people about his love for all nations."

Prairie Chick said...

Psalm 67. "May God be merciful and bless us. May His face smile with favor on us." verse 1

My prayer and need today. Wrestling in a dark spot, anxiety and depression and pent up repressed baggage coming to light... it's hard work. so, so hard. But I am crying out for prayer for just that mercy that God would bless me through this and lift up my head.

Prairie Chick said...

Jeremiah 5:31 "But what will you do when the end comes?"

this just reminded me how we should be living each moment, each choice in light of eternity.

Prairie Chick said...

Lamentations 4.

"How the gold has lost it's lustre. Even the finest gold has become dull."

that is so how I feel when I am struggling with anxiety and depression.

"Not a king in all the earth- no one in all the world- would have believedthat an enemy could march through the gates of Jerusalem."

That is how other people seem to look at me. I confess my weakness and they are like "no, you are strong! you are the strongest woman I know! I wish I had just a little bit of your strength!" they could never believe the weariness and despair I experience trying to keep my head up and my eyes fixed on truth and hope.

"Our enemies were swifter than eagles in flight. If we fled to the mountains they found us. If we hid in the winderness they were waiting for us there."

Yes. enemies are like that. Swifter, stronger, and always right on our tail.

"Oh beautiful Jerusalem, your punishment will end, you will soon return from exile."

exile for me is the place where I can't imagine finding the way back to that place of joy and peace back to the promised land. But I have learned cry out, confess, beseech... corporately confess and watch God swoop in to redeem.

Someone said to me yesterday that "if brokeness brings me closer to God then bring on the brokeness." This is so painfully and wonerfully true. We hate pain and struggles. Yet if pain and struggles bring us closer to God.... what can be better than being closer to God. I see this as true in my life this past week. I have not experienced the nearness of God and his strength and care and love in such a powerful way in a long time.

So I embrace my weakness so that I can delight in His strength.

Denise said...

Lamentations 4
Wow, this was so depressing. PC, your comments were very helpful and encouraging.

Annette said...

Thanks, PC for your comments. I so needed them this week.

Prairie Chick said...

This week has been a rollercoaster for me. Down, down down to rock bottom... facing desperation, anxiety, depression, stress, exhaustion. It was a very scary place for me where I had no sense of control and felt like I had completely hit the end of myself.

God has been faithful. He has gifted me with grace and peace and strength through the supernatural work of His spirit, empowered to work in me by the prayers of His people and my own desperate pleas for respite.

I now am beginning to understand how His strength is made perfect in weakness. Not understand it through some detached head knowledge, but through practical experience. To have His power at work in me is a gift that I can't receive if I am going on my own steam.

I want to praise Him for carrying me, through His word, through His spiritual presence, through music that has served to send anxiety packing and get my heart and mind seeped in truth. I feel a bit like I have been through a train wreck and am walking around with emotional whiplash but I feel lucid and happy to be in one piece... walking.

I am excited to face the coming week and redeem the dream.